You have been an inspiration to me, Your joy, Your humour, Your gentleness, Your passion.
I am blessed to have You in my life, to go with You on o/Our adventures, and to just be with You when w/We both just need to relax or be silly. I love that o/Our relationship is unfolding slowly, each moment with You a gift.
I have so much excitement for whatever comes as w/We continue walking forward on this path together.
Thank you for being here with me.
“A quote, poem, or piece of writing that you think this deity resonates strongly with.”
This one clicked itself as I was perusing Yeat’s poems again.
`Three dear things that women know,’
Sang a bone upon the shore;
`A man if I but held him so
When my body was alive
Found all the pleasure that life gave’:
A bone wave-whitened and dried in the wind.
-“Three Things” W. B. Yeats
“Nothing ever truly ends. Our experiences, our adventures,
our loves, they all stay alive within us.”
“Find the joy in each moment, and if that cannot be found,
take what you can. Let it teach you which things in your life are worth
keeping, which things, and even people, bring you nothing but strife.
When there is no joy, or no purpose, let it go.”
“Those things that we lose, don’t always require us to find them.
Some things are meant to be left behind.”
Oh jeez, where do I start?
Baldr is very playful, He enjoys laughing and joking around. He helps me to not get so deep into the depressive bouts that come around. It’s not that He dismisses it, but encourages working through it, and relaizing this is not how it is always going to be. That I can feel really shitty for a week or two, but then I will eventually get back to feeling fine, feeling able to do all the things I generally do around here.
He is definitely Someone Who can always see the silver lining.
I also have been loving that He is enamoured with every moment, with the wonder to be found in almost any situation. I adore this about Him, especially in a world that continues to move faster and faster, where being in the moment isn’t what matters, but where we’re going. Unfortunately once we get there, there’s somewhere else we need to get to… and on, and on. He is very mindful, and full of appreciation for what each moment brings. He’s a good influence :)
I can’t really speak to anything I have found difficult about Him as of yet. The relationship is still pretty fresh, honestly, not even a year old. I’m sure things will unfold as they always do in time.
“That which is always spoken upon, balance, moderation, the middle road. We swing more as pendulums, never on that middle road, always one way or the other. Life is not meant to be a constant walk on a very straight line. None would ever learn if there was no deviation, no exploration.
We find balance by experimenting with our ideas, our feelings, our actions, to see the path that always leads us back to our centre, the part of us that doesn’t seem to change much, though if you look, you’ll see you’ve always been changing.”
I feel that this is a subject we put too much emphasis on, whether it’s in regards to Gods and spirits, or other human beings. For me, a p/Person is a p/Person. Gentialia doesn’t matter much, sexuality is a lot more fluid than we like to believe. However a p/Person enjoys sexuality is t/Their own business, and t/Those t/They share it with.
I don’t like to view the interactions I may have with any given p/Person and decide that that is the only lense with which I will forever and forever see t/Them and how t/They are, amen. I hate putting myself in boxes, and I’ll be damned if I try to do that to a/Anyone else, especially a God, Who are all vast and infinite beyond what we can even comprehend.
So where does this leave us with Baldr? In “the Lore”, we see Him as being pretty cis-male and hetero. He fights to win Nanna, very aggressive and what we’ve been told is very “manly”.
In terms of my own interactions with Him, He always shows as male, and there’s definitely a lot of male-flavoured virility to Him. Perhaps this is just to mirror and balance the strength and comfort I have in being female? That is not to say that this would be the case with everyone in terms of what they feel their gender is.
In terms of sexuality, I admit my own sexuality is quite fluid, I really don’t put a label on it, and though I may look hetero to outsiders because of the nearly 10 year relationship I have with my male partner, definitely does not mean that I am hetero, that’s it, the end.
There are MANY ways to have a relationship, whether with other humans or Gods. I personally hate labelling certain behaviours and dynamics with “male” and “female” labels. Being a leader is not inherently a male trait. Being nurturing is not inherently a female trait. They are simply traits that we all have that depends on who we are as people, and how we behave with certain people.
I know this has turned into a rant that’s not really associated with Baldr very much, but I’m not going to put Him into a tiny box. He decides who He interacts with, and with that goes how He interacts. And that is simply not my business. He has shown Himself male and virile to me, but that’s not the be all and end all form He’ll take with everyone else who meets Him. That’s up to what He feels is appropriate to your INDIVIDUAL relationship.