Don’t Fret! I’m Still Here!

Hello, my pretties!
I haven’t fallen off the face of the universe… yet… πŸ˜›
I know I have the “Blogging Without Obligation” up, but I thought it would be nice to let you know what’s been going on for me in the past few weeks.
I was sick… an awful, at first, head cold/stomach issue thing, then it turned into horrible headaches I couldn’t get rid of no matter how much ibu prophen I took and lavender I smelled. The headaches are still around… definitely not as bad, and manageable with some drugs. Also, this week and last week happens to be midterms for me! Eep! Had a big music history test on Friday, have a Theory test on Wednsday this week, then a quartet thing to sing in sight singing on Thursday, and a sight singing test this Friday… and finally, my piano midterm next Monday! Phew!

I will say though, that this year has definitely been a Hel of a lot nicer to me as far as stressful situations go! No crazy room mates, and a theory class which has a pace I can relax in! Also… somehow, my pieces for my solo vocal work are pretty easy, and all in English except one (how did that happen?), which just has a repeated “Alleluia”, lol.

Arighty, I will be posting soon, have a wonderful Autumn (or Spring) day! πŸ™‚

 

Change on the Winds


I’ve been feeling kinda strange lately. A little restless, and feeling like things aren’t going to be as they are for much longer. I also feel a little hesitant to usher this change in without making a fuss about it, as I am often likely to do. I do know that I get in my own way when it comes to progress in my life. I’m a Taurus, I’m stubborn. Just my way. I even remembered the tarot spread I pulled at the Gregorian New Year when 2011 came in, and the cards told me of a big change that I was not so willing to accept. Le sigh. I also have a strange suspicion it will be good for me, alas, I will still fight it. It’s too much work, I’ll whine. I know it.

My plans for my music career are always changing, one minute I’m getting the degree, next I don’t want to. As for now, it’s a money issue, however, I want to at least take some of the courses next fall. On a good school note, however, I feel much more relaxed this year. I’m not allowing myself to worry about things I don’t need to (which is basically everything but theory).
Then the plans for what I want to do with music are finally more solid… opera chorus in the winter, wedding ceremony singing in the summer (as here there are only 4 operas a year in the fall and winter seasons). Even have a few of my friends at school who will accompany me or join me in duet work.

As far as spiritually, I feel I’m growing right now. Slowly, still in a cocoon, still not out and really into it, but close. Still fighting against the idea that I “need” certain things to practice and have a fulfilling practice. It’s falling away though. Am on a mostly daily practice lately, and it feels right.

And how are you, my lovely reader? What is this autumn blowing your way?

And The Work Begins!

So tomorrow, it’s back to school! Not that I actually have classes tomorrow. The music department cancels classes on the first day to have an assembly and figure out when each student is going to have their private lessons. Anywho, so I’ve been kinda trying to figure out what I want to do with the singing. It’s been leaning towards being in an opera chorus (as you know if you read the last music-related post). However, I’ve been thinking lately too, and this is an old idea, but I was also thinking of doing wedding ceremony singing. Not singing at receptions, but just at the ceremonies. I like the idea of working for myself (I did it for a while last year when I was dog-sitting in Ontario). Also, I get to make people’s special days more special with the awesome powers of music! And cuz I’ve been taking classical training, I can pretty much do any sort of style too because along with classical pieces, we have to do folk/musical/contemporary pieces as well, and work on just being able to sing well without putting a specific style on it. Anywho… just an idea for now. I’m going to let this year happen and get through it before I make any decisions, but I don’t think I’ll be getting the Bachelor’s degree as honestly, it’s really only good if I want to go further and look into the more academic side and get into teaching (which is totally not my bag). What I really need is the voice lessons (obviously) and the ability to sight read and pick up languages quickly, which are things I do well already, not that I’m trying to toot my own horn, lol, but I know what my strengths are, and singing is one of the only things that I will openly say I’m good at πŸ˜›

On another note, I will also be attending a Wicca 101 class with a local group! So excited to see what comes of this! I never thought I’d ever want to really get out there in the Pagan world, always figured I was a solitary witch, but lately, I’ve been feeling such a need to get in contact with others. The class I think will be good for me as I really need to start practicing more regularly, and having to do some Pagan homework (whatever that may be) will be wonderful πŸ™‚

Scratching

I feel as though I’m only scratching at the surface. For having been on a pagan/witchy path for so long, I feel like I’ve gotten almost nowhere. I will say, I am definitely not the fluffy witch I once was, I feel more informed, more aware of the depth that is spirituality. I do realize I am still young, that I haven’t exactly experienced an incredible amount of life yet, therefore have not gained much in the way of insight and wisdom. I also realize that at this moment in time, I am going to school for music, which takes up basically all of my time, energy, and focus. Though I often think of incorporating little daily practices into my life, I suffer from all or nothing syndrome, it’s gotta be big and all out or it’s going to be nothing at all. I feel as though the biggestΒ hindranceΒ is my perception that my practice has to be a certain way, that it has to be grand and elaborate, and I must get all these fabulous items that cost a fortune.
I understand that this may make it seem as though I’m all about the material, tangible things, and perhaps I am, I am a Taurus after all! I feel like I really need to realize that right now, at this point in my life, my focus will be on music, that my studies and practice in my spirituality will only go so deep. Perhaps to truly delve into this, I need to wait until my other personal wells are dug, that it will all progress gradually when the time is right for me. It might be that once I am completely immersed in music, when I am making a living of it and living the music that I can also achieve a deeper connection to my spiritual path; more and more, I believe for me, they are connected.
I also feel as though I am lazy… or perhaps, afraid to get in too deep. Again, the all or nothing comes in. I shelter myself in my laziness I suppose, from really achieving anything, or failing at anything. Sigh. It’s something to work through, to work with, and conquer.

The End

The end of the semester from hell has come and passed! Yay! I now only have a week and a half off just before I go back for more classes during the summer. Thankfully, I’m only taking two courses – Studies in Poetry and History from 1900-1945. They’re the courses that are required on top of my music courses, but I decided to take them during the summer because I can, and I’m glad I chose to do it that way, let me tell you!

So some interesting news, my school choir, and some previous members to fill it out, were asked to perform for Video Games Live! It was pretty awesome. And to show how awesome our group is… lol… we had to sing a completely new piece we’d never seen before the day of the first performance! Go us… we totally rocked it, so it ended well, that’s for sure πŸ™‚ They asked us to perform again with them on the 18th of May, so woot! More singing moneys πŸ™‚

Anywho… Beltaine is on its way! I’m incredibly excited, this is one of my favourite holidays, and not just because of the obvious πŸ˜‰ It’s crazy that I’ve been writing this blog for just about a year now! Eek! And that means it’s almost my birthday too πŸ™‚ I’m quite excited for the coming summer, all sorts of prospects… and rest, much needed rest. Thank goodness I’m only going to school two days a week πŸ™‚

Post-a-Day

So, wordpress has this post-a-day (or, post-a-week) challenge. I will be taking the latter, as I’d rather not have added stress of thinking what to write about everyday on top of homework, lol. So I will try writing a post a week, hopefully more, for the year of 2011 πŸ™‚ I think it’s a good idea, and I like it! Lol.

So, anywho. Yule and the New Year celebrations were good to us, it’s been a quiet time, full of rest, and I’m ready for school coming tomorrow. In fact, I’m excited to go back and be immersed in music once more. The holiday has been filled with spell casting, words sent up to the Gods, magic(k)al cleaning (you would not believe how good my apartment smelled after I cleaned the floors with a homemade floor wash to get rid of negativity and bring about happiness, prosperity and peace, yum!). I feel quite positive about the coming year, I even did a what’s to come in the next twelve months tarot reading for myself, and it seems as though this year will be quite productive for me, as well as having big changes to come near the closing of the year.

Secretly, I’ve been dreaming of babies… but as my dear mother told me, I just started school, and need to focus and finish that before I start even thinking about babies. I won’t be thirty yet by the time I get the degree, so that seems like a sound idea, lol. But shh, the baby dreaming is a secret, lol. So hopefully this is not the big change, lol.

I am quite excited for this coming semester as I will be singing a duet with another aspiring opera singer πŸ™‚ In fact, we both have the same name, it’s hilarious. We will be singing “Dome Epaix” from “Lakme” by Delibes. I feel lazy and don’t want to put the accents on, so sue me πŸ˜› And I think I’ll be doing another duet with another friend as well, but we’re not sure what yet.

Aaaah, there’s just something about the new year that sparks hope and excitement in me… love it! πŸ˜€ Hope you all are as excited as I am!

Thank You!

Thanks to all those who read this blog! I see that there are people still checking in and such, my views haven’t dropped to zero yet! Lol. You guys are awesome!

So I thought I’d let you know what’s been going on since we haven’t chatted for a few weeks.
School has been going pretty well, all my profs are wonderful and helpful. I had some issues with being overwhelmed and exhausted, but thanks to upping my vit B12, and getting a B vitamin complex pill, I’m getting more and more energy, woo! It’s just frustrating though with having the B12 deficiency and not being able to find the proper amount of the vit in a pill… :S
Anywho, I’ve been kind of a bad doggy mummy too, unfortunately, the poor babe hasn’t had a walk in two weeks I think it is… so hopefully with this energy building, I’ll be able to take her out soon!

I’m just so happy that I’m completely immersed in music again… it’s been much too long! Singing makes me feel connected to my body and through my body, connected to the earth, it’s a wonderful feeling, you should try it! Doesn’t matter if you can’t sing well, it feels good, just like dancing πŸ™‚

Alright my lovelies! Till we meet again! Which shall hopefully be soon!

Many Blessings!

Bleh

Sorry for the lack of postings! Applying for post secondary education is one of the most frustrating things I’ve had to go through yet! Is it always this bad for everyone? Jeez.

Anywho, I suppose that the new school year is coming up quick as well, which will mean that there will be a smaller amount of postings going up each week as school work will dominate a whole big chunk of my time, lol, at least I’m assuming it will. Who knows? Lol. (If you do know, please let me know, that way I can be one who knows, πŸ˜‰ )

I plan to keep posting at least once a week as I do enjoy blogging, and perhaps after getting into academic writing at school, my posts will be better, haha! πŸ˜‰

Thank you all for reading πŸ™‚