It Doesn’t Always Work How You Think It Will

So it’s been a bit difficult lately in terms of my ability to concentrate. Which means meditating and trying to journey has also become difficult. I ground, center, and cleanse, then try to empty the useless thoughts out. Well, shortly after becoming empty, all the weird, pre-dreaming thoughts come into my head, without much notice from me until I’m almost asleep. I suppose it’s helpful that I can fall asleep more easily now, having sweet slumber come more readily lately is a blessing after the past year. I’m definitely grateful for that, make no mistake.

But back to that journeying I would like to be doing, she’s being elusive. Funny thing is, when I drew some cards yesterday before going Somewhere, I got these three cards: Seven of Bows – Clearance, The Journey, and Five of Stones – Endurance. Quite fitting, really, as yes, I began falling asleep with those weird, pre-dream thoughts during my attempt at journeying, and failing. Endurance to endeavour, indeed!

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The past few months have seen much less attempts at journeying, so I can understand why it’s been difficult for me to go back in. With that being said, I also know that even though there have been fewer attempts at journeying, I’ve had one foot in the Otherworld and one in this for quite awhile now. So, really, I am Somewhere else most of the time. I’ve been able to directly interact in both worlds quite easily while out and about on the forested trail, and even in my backyard, since it overlooks a swamp and there’s a plethora of plants, animals, and land spirits to connect with. It hasn’t required much effort to be in this state, other than allowing it to just be what it is. It’s been strange adjusting to this new way my brain likes to work, since like I said, I have less focus, and for a few months during the winter, I was having a really hard time remembering things.

Now, the memory has come back to an extent, much more manageable, but I don’t seem to be remembering all these little things like I used to be able to do. But I love that my brain is readily able to empty out without much effort as I’m going about in the yard, and there’s always this magick that seeps into the emptiness. I get to feel more wonder in the world about me now, and that makes me even more open for the interactions because I don’t get in my own way with those terrible thoughts they teach you are a part of being a grown up that nothing is “real”, it’s all fantasy and make-believe. Those thoughts are useless, and hinder. It’s about finding how these things are “real” and manifest for you. Even when they do pop up in my head, I take a moment to look at why I have them in a more anthropological fashion, and dismiss them.

What I’d also like to iterate is that most common of sayings, that anything to do with the spiritual, (in this case, journeying) is different for everyone. There are basic ways of teaching and learning how to do these (and many) things, but the continued practice will see it morph into what it needs to be for you at any given moment in time. This is probably why most of my magick and honouring kind of just flows from me, from the moment, from what feels powerful at that point in time. However, there are times when having that structure in place, the words or songs or actions repeated, are equally as powerful. It lends a prolonged focus to my workings as I have to prepare whatever ritual or working I need to do.

I know, I know, I seem to go back and forth on these thoughts, but it’s more of, I see that all of these things can work, in their own times. Structure really helps when you’re doing work in groups, structure can heighten it because there is comfort in structure. Yet alone, after having structure in place, after knowing why I do what I do, there is comfortableness which allows my actions and words and songs to pour forth and be equally well received. It is very much akin to creating any kind of art, sometimes you want to sing Mozart’s very technical Queen of the Night’s aria “Der Hölle Rache”, sometimes you just want to scat whatever inspires you in a sultry jazz song.

It’s important to not get hung up on any particular way or idea on what or how things should work for you. Be open and fluid, because that’s how the connections and inspirations from the Spirits and the Divine can flow in and through you. So for now, I endeavour to build up my ability to focus for more in depth journeying, however, I will also enjoy the walking in both worlds at the same time in my everyday life and what nourishment that has and continues to bring to me.

Musings on a Rainy Day

Rainy Willows

My Full Moon cakes have been taken away from beneath these willows. The smell on the breeze of damp earth is intoxicating. It’s one of my favourite smells. While it had stopped raining as I took these pictures but a few minutes ago, the sky is falling once more, gently on the greening world outside as I sip my Earl Grey and type away.

Much of my past few weeks since returning from the East Coast has been spent sweating away under the sun, digging out my garden plots. Alas, the rain has come and now my plots are riddled with puddles. I’m hopping the puddling will be solved after I run the tiller through and add some sand from some of the other plots. I’m itching to get the seeds in the ground, but it seems everything this year wants to be late according to the seasons and weather, so I’ll just have to be patient.

Plots

My mom and I went out over the weekend to pick up our rhubarb, raspberry, and blueberry plants that will in a few years be a good source of lots of jams and pies and other tasty desserts. The raspberry, especially, looks very happy out on our deck, many new leaves have come out over the few days we’ve had it. The peas are also on the deck waiting to be planted, and are looking very happy for all the light access.
We even dug out the front flower beds and put in a mix of wildflower seed, I’ll let you know how well that works out as at the end of the season, you cut it back and it’s supposed to reseed itself for the following year.

It’s been an excellent few weeks, even with my body (mostly my back) aching from all the intense work. I stupidly did some digging two days ago whilst the weather was humid and hot. So when yesterday came around, and it was cool and non-rainy, I was too exhausted to do anything. However, the day was spent writing a ritual for the Full Moon, as I already knew what I needed it to be for. The kitties were being mischievous during the affair, if you wanted to know.
As I said in a previous post, it’s really nice having all the energy worked out of you so that you just do, you don’t think. The ritual last night lasted much longer than I thought, and even the kitties didn’t keep my attention from what was happening in my circle. Again, being cleaned out by exhaustion is purifying, and it certainly helped me weave my magick.

Puddles

I’ve also been struck by how naturally noisy it is here in the country. I don’t mean the vehicles that drive by (we are on one of the busiest roads in this small town, with transport trucks going by at regular intervals during the day, including the Beer Store truck that honks as he passes our house), but by the birds here. And by plural birds, I mean a ton. Robins, Red-winged Blackbirds, Finches, Chickadees, Woodpeckers, Brewer’s Blackbirds, Canadian Geese, Mourning Doves, a Hawk of some sort (they always fly much too high for me to pick out any specific identifying colours), Gulls, Blue Jays, an occasional Raven, Common Blackbirds. That’s all I’ve been able to hear/see so far this spring. It’s amazing all you’ll find when you pay attention. On top of that is the hum of things at night in the swampy area behind our property that leads into a wood.

Oh, and the crows, never forget the crows. They wouldn’t let you anyway.

It’s a happening time indeed, for which I am grateful. Even my best friend is about to have a baby at any moment. There’s no time for dilly-dallying.
I must say I’m happy for the break in too much computer time, but that’s what people do now (year-round even, Gods forbid) since we live in the age of the Internet. Having Google at your fingertips is great, and all the world’s knowledge, but going out and really experiencing life for yourself is still needed. I won’t say best, there is a time for experience, and a time for study and reflection. They are both needed and important.

This rainy week has had me on edge again though, I’m so close to having all the plots dug and ready, so close to planting the seeds in the earth, yet even if it was all ready, it’s much too wet for planting seeds at the moment anyway, as you can tell in the photo above with the puddles.

I suppose I should just get this posted as I’m on baby watch 😀

I hope your spring season is full of wonder and work.

New Imagery?

So I just found out earlier this week, we can now upload background images to wordpress blogs! It’s about time, I must say! So as soon as I discovered this, I decided to make myself a background. I love Photoshop, I really do! I decided to go with some written words because, well, this is a blog, I do write here!! lol. And some feathers and birds because they are creatures of the air, and air is associated with communication, ideas, thoughts, creativity, the mind. I thought it was appropriate 🙂

How do you like the new look?? 🙂

Anywho… strange things a-happening yesterday. We went out to get groceries, etc, and for some strange reason, I was so disoriented and felt very weird. It was like I couldn’t look at enough around me, and for the life of me, I couldn’t focus visually on one thing very well. Had to give the shopping list to the man so he could make sure we had picked up what we needed. Needless to say, it was very strange and I was glad I wasn’t out and about alone. It seemed to clear up when we got some food… strange, very strange. If anyone has experienced this or knows what it is, I’d love to find out! That’s pretty much the first time it has ever happened to me though.

I’ve been thinking about plants again! He-he. I just can’t stop it. The winter weather here in the Pacific Northwest is just so different, that although we’re still in January, I feel like Spring is just around the corner. I feel sorry for my family in Ontario who are dealing with three feet of snow, and crappy winter weather, but am glad all I need are a good pair of rubber boots and an umbrella, lol. This year, I want to finally grow the lovely witchy seeds I bought over a year ago. I think I will buy a few more seeds some witchy (belladonna, henbane, clary sage, angelica) and some for foods ( chiles (jalapeno & ancho), I already have some nice tomato seeds, so salsa and tomato sauce here I come!). I’m also thinking of growing from a bought avocado and getting some seeds to grow my own bay laurel tree. That would be wonderful. Although, I will have to sit down and really think about what I can realistically grow because my apartment is quite small, and the windows don’t bring in an enormous amount of light. I’m also not sure if I will be able to make a little garden in the yard.. will have to chat with the owners about that one!
What are you folks planning for your gardens, witchy or otherwise?

Dreaming of Green

It’s not even the new year yet, and I’m thinking about gardening! I’ve been perusing the internets, looking at those nifty AeroGardens, alas, they are much too expensive for a student such as meself, and apparently for best results, you should continue buying their seed packets and parts. So… I was looking into alternatives, and have found a few.

Basically, there are aero ponics (which is what the AeroGarden is), and hydroponics. I know this is totally gonna make me sound like I’m going to grow the sticky icky, alas, I assure you, I will not be growing the sticky icky, lol (I really don’t want any trouble with the law, thank you very much!). So, both ways are soil-less; aeroponics suspends the roots in air (hence, “aero) and you have a mister spraying the roots with nutrients and such, and give occasional breaks to the roots of being misted; then there’s hydroponics which suspends the roots in water (hence “hydro”), and you just make sure that you have a way of getting oxygen in the water, basically a fish tank aerator.

This is a basic image of what aeroponic gardening would look like:

And here is what a hydroponics system would look like:

 


So, have any of you tried any of these methods… or have other methods to share? From all the reading I’ve done, these seem to produce more yield because the roots are directly getting the nutrients and such, and from all the pretty pictures and videos of beautiful greenery, I think it might be a good thing to check out! Right now, I’m just going to start my seeds in a tray, and make sure I have a lamp on them so they get enough light (cuz in a basement apartment with not a lot of light, I don’t want my plant babies dying on me!). Then, when they’re about ready to be transplanted, I’ll figure out which kind of ponics I’ll go with, lol. That just made me think of “hooked on phonics” 😀

Morning Walk Bounty

This morning, the Man woke up for work, and I thought I was going to stay in bed to sleep some more, but mother nature decided that my bladder was full enough to keep me awake! So I went downstairs, hung out with the Man for a while (meaning I was getting in some hugs and kisses for the daily quota early 😉 ), and decided after he left to take my pup out for a walk. We didn’t go too far, it was kinda early for me, and I was enjoying the nice cool air (15 degrees is awesome!).

I ended up finding a feather and some Rowan berries and leaves.

I’m also posting pics of my little window herb garden… update!!! 😀

Little Hike In The Woods


Plant Identification Adventures!

Yesterday, the man and I took out our dog, Pippa, and the dog I’m currently sitting for during the week (Foxy) out for a little adventure out in a small wooded area near our home. Unfortunately, around here, that’s pretty much it as far as wooded areas/forests go, sigh! Oh well.

So I took my camera to start doing some plant identification. I know I really won’t need to know too much for Ontario soon, but I’d like to get to know some good resources on the internet before I go out to BC. (I will be picking up a field guide once out there, though!)

So here are some pictures of our little adventure!

The man with Pippa and Foxy (Pippa’s the black doggy)

This little guy flew right in front of me, stayed for four shots,
then I looked at my display to make sure I got some good ones,
looked back, and he was gone 🙂

A fairy dwelling perhaps? 🙂