PBP – It’s Been Four Years

I got a little popup on my blog’s dashboard today that said it has been four years since I started this blog. Wow. I’ve looked back through my posts a couple times over the years, to see where I’ve been and where I am now… I can see the transitions between the research loop that can happen when really starting out, I remember the books I was reading back then (struggling to get out of the 101, yet also reading some essential books that I’d never read before). I see where I began to focus my attentions, where I’ve been Guided.
I also see where I’ve lost interest in what others are doing and saying at the moment, instead being more interested in what’s happening for me, my Gods and Spirits. It seems that sentiment also ripples out into my everyday life that isn’t much concerned with the spiritual. I wouldn’t have it any other way because I do the things that I want without a thought of what countless other people think (who ultimately have no idea what would work for me, what nourishes my spirituality).

These past four years have seen much change in the way I practice, believe, and have focused most of my life around my spirituality. I have been fortunate in the past two years to have experienced some less pleasant things that have helped me to also keep one foot here and one foot Elsewhere. As much as being depressed and floundering for over a year sucked, it was incredibly transformative, and I have begun to see where my road could be leading for future endeavours.

I thank my Gods and Spirits for sticking with me through it, and helping to show me things along the way so that when I look back at it now, I see the grander picture, where it was all leading me towards.

Another Turn Around the Sun

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Well, it’s been another year of my life… and what a year it’s been! I am so thankful for the sun and warm weather after the past winter. And while I didn’t necessarily enjoy the winter very much, I am thankful for the experience and the being forced to deal with, well, shit. Not to say that it’s over because I think now I am to look at it from a bit of a distance, as a whole, and delve into the spiritual Work that needs doing. There’s a reason why these things hit us hard, and I have a feeling it’s ultimately going to shape my path.

Look at me, all serious! Well, honestly, things are getting serious. I feel as though I’ve only been standing close to the fence after jumping over it into paganism as a fresh teenager; never daring to really walk in the shaded forest beyond. It’s definitely scary, sometimes shockingly so. But I am glad for it.
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These beautiful flowers came in today from my lovely parents 🙂

New Year, New You

Found this inspiring, awesome idea at Deb’s blog. I’m so excited, I can’t even tell you! I’ve been wanting to figure out ways to improve myself and my life this year, and here is a lovely way to do it! I don’t have to only rely on myself, which is good, cuz I have an amazing tendency to get lazy and put things off for an eternity.

I’ve been meaning to sit down and write out some goals for the next year, big ones to be accomplished over the course of the year, monthly ones, weekly ones and daily ones. I find that if things are meant to happen for me, I will see something that matches perfectly over and over again. I have seen this New Year, New You stuff all over today, so, what the Hel, I’ll take up arms and troop through my own inner and outer battles for once!

Since I’m a few weeks behind, I will be playing catch up in the next couple of posts… stay tuned!!

Change on the Winds


I’ve been feeling kinda strange lately. A little restless, and feeling like things aren’t going to be as they are for much longer. I also feel a little hesitant to usher this change in without making a fuss about it, as I am often likely to do. I do know that I get in my own way when it comes to progress in my life. I’m a Taurus, I’m stubborn. Just my way. I even remembered the tarot spread I pulled at the Gregorian New Year when 2011 came in, and the cards told me of a big change that I was not so willing to accept. Le sigh. I also have a strange suspicion it will be good for me, alas, I will still fight it. It’s too much work, I’ll whine. I know it.

My plans for my music career are always changing, one minute I’m getting the degree, next I don’t want to. As for now, it’s a money issue, however, I want to at least take some of the courses next fall. On a good school note, however, I feel much more relaxed this year. I’m not allowing myself to worry about things I don’t need to (which is basically everything but theory).
Then the plans for what I want to do with music are finally more solid… opera chorus in the winter, wedding ceremony singing in the summer (as here there are only 4 operas a year in the fall and winter seasons). Even have a few of my friends at school who will accompany me or join me in duet work.

As far as spiritually, I feel I’m growing right now. Slowly, still in a cocoon, still not out and really into it, but close. Still fighting against the idea that I “need” certain things to practice and have a fulfilling practice. It’s falling away though. Am on a mostly daily practice lately, and it feels right.

And how are you, my lovely reader? What is this autumn blowing your way?

Norse Runes – Uruz

Uruz (pronounced “ooo-rooz”), Ur, Uraz, Urs, Urus, Urur

Translation:
The literal translation is “auroch”, which is a wild, European ox.

Meaning:
When Uruz pops up in a casting, it shows strength: physical strength, endurance, speed, good health. As Fehu is the tamed cattle, Uruz shows us that once, the cattle was wild as the auroch. There’s energy and action, wisdom and understanding. It can also mean that there will be a sudden and unexpected change in your life that presents itself as a challenge, but is usually for the better. This can mean an initiation or rites of passage of some sort (especially into adulthood).
There is much wild creative formation going on within at the moment, but it is up to the querent to use their knowledge and understanding to make this energy manifest in a non-destructive manner.
For a male querent, it pertains to male virility and manhood, if a woman, then femininity, fertility and womanhood.

Merkstave:
When Uruz shows its face upside-down, it is a time of weakness, violence, brutality, being rash. Lust, misdirection of force, being dominated by others, obsession. Poor health and lack of energy, ignorance and inconsistency. It is not a time of thinking clearly.

Converse (sideways):
If this rune shows up and is laying sideways to you, then it means you must realize your hidden strengths and stay away from apparent opportunities as they will be deceptive.

Magical Purposes:
Physical strength, energy, good health. Creativity, to help in understanding and knowing one’s wild side and use it (tame it). Purification, healing and shaping energy, ideas and your creative juices.

Associations:
The number 2, male, Earth, Thor, Urdl, dark green, Taurus, Birch, carbuncle.


Post-a-Day

So, wordpress has this post-a-day (or, post-a-week) challenge. I will be taking the latter, as I’d rather not have added stress of thinking what to write about everyday on top of homework, lol. So I will try writing a post a week, hopefully more, for the year of 2011 🙂 I think it’s a good idea, and I like it! Lol.

So, anywho. Yule and the New Year celebrations were good to us, it’s been a quiet time, full of rest, and I’m ready for school coming tomorrow. In fact, I’m excited to go back and be immersed in music once more. The holiday has been filled with spell casting, words sent up to the Gods, magic(k)al cleaning (you would not believe how good my apartment smelled after I cleaned the floors with a homemade floor wash to get rid of negativity and bring about happiness, prosperity and peace, yum!). I feel quite positive about the coming year, I even did a what’s to come in the next twelve months tarot reading for myself, and it seems as though this year will be quite productive for me, as well as having big changes to come near the closing of the year.

Secretly, I’ve been dreaming of babies… but as my dear mother told me, I just started school, and need to focus and finish that before I start even thinking about babies. I won’t be thirty yet by the time I get the degree, so that seems like a sound idea, lol. But shh, the baby dreaming is a secret, lol. So hopefully this is not the big change, lol.

I am quite excited for this coming semester as I will be singing a duet with another aspiring opera singer 🙂 In fact, we both have the same name, it’s hilarious. We will be singing “Dome Epaix” from “Lakme” by Delibes. I feel lazy and don’t want to put the accents on, so sue me 😛 And I think I’ll be doing another duet with another friend as well, but we’re not sure what yet.

Aaaah, there’s just something about the new year that sparks hope and excitement in me… love it! 😀 Hope you all are as excited as I am!